藍又時 - 秘密

詞/曲:藍又時



你就直接回頭吧 她在等著你
不要怕我會哭泣 早就在心底
想想你說過的話 其實我們不虛假
那就好吧 其實你對我不差

別對我食之無味 棄之可惜
雖然你還有感覺 但不是愛情
想想你說過的話 其實我們不虛假
那就好了吧 這些夠了呀

我們的愛情是秘密 不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
他在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

你就讓我跟著你 一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們 都能夠清晰 你和他是不變的定律

別對我食之無味 棄之可惜
雖然你還有感覺 但不是愛情
想想你說過的話 其實我們不虛假
那就好了吧 這些夠了呀

我們的愛情是秘密 不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
他在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

你就讓我跟著你 一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們 都能夠清晰 你和他是不變的定律

我們的愛情是秘密 不能成立
就算我愛你也不能夠說明
他在你身邊逗你開心
我只不過讓你歇斯底里

就讓我跟著你 一起祕密
我們的事情說好不提起
讓我們 都能夠清晰 你和他是不變的定律

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想著總有一天會走向終程的旅途
心中有著準備
沒有答案也不需要什麼答案
只不過領向的好像不是我想要的罷了

ptt dslr板友的簽名檔

「她比書上看起來還要糟糕。她的臉好…brumeux」（法文，意為朦朧）
「foggy。（朦朧）」m她祖父用英文教她。
「foggy。」蘇菲重覆唸了一次這個英語字彙，
心知除非她把這個英文生字跟著唸一遍，否則別想繼續和祖父談下去。
「這在攝影中稱為『移焦法』，」他告訴她：
「這種技巧很難。Canon這方面的功力比任何相機都好」 ---丹‧布朗《達聞西蜜碼》


好表啊XDXD

Dear A.I.G., I Quit!

From The New York Times

http://www.nytimes.com/2009/03/25/opinion/25desantis.html?_r=3

The following is a letter sent on Tuesday by Jake DeSantis, an executive vice president of the American International Group’s financial products unit, to Edward M. Liddy, the chief executive of A.I.G.

DEAR Mr. Liddy,

It is with deep regret that I submit my notice of resignation from A.I.G. Financial Products. I hope you take the time to read this entire letter. Before describing the details of my decision, I want to offer some context:

I am proud of everything I have done for the commodity and equity divisions of A.I.G.-F.P. I was in no way involved in — or responsible for — the credit default swap transactions that have hamstrung A.I.G. Nor were more than a handful of the 400 current employees of A.I.G.-F.P. Most of those responsible have left the company and have conspicuously escaped the public outrage.

After 12 months of hard work dismantling the company — during which A.I.G. reassured us many times we would be rewarded in March 2009 — we in the financial products unit have been betrayed by A.I.G. and are being unfairly persecuted by elected officials. In response to this, I will now leave the company and donate my entire post-tax retention payment to those suffering from the global economic downturn. My intent is to keep none of the money myself.

I take this action after 11 years of dedicated, honorable service to A.I.G. I can no longer effectively perform my duties in this dysfunctional environment, nor am I being paid to do so. Like you, I was asked to work for an annual salary of $1, and I agreed out of a sense of duty to the company and to the public officials who have come to its aid. Having now been let down by both, I can no longer justify spending 10, 12, 14 hours a day away from my family for the benefit of those who have let me down.

You and I have never met or spoken to each other, so I’d like to tell you about myself. I was raised by schoolteachers working multiple jobs in a world of closing steel mills. My hard work earned me acceptance to M.I.T., and the institute’s generous financial aid enabled me to attend. I had fulfilled my American dream.

I started at this company in 1998 as an equity trader, became the head of equity and commodity trading and, a couple of years before A.I.G.’s meltdown last September, was named the head of business development for commodities. Over this period the equity and commodity units were consistently profitable — in most years generating net profits of well over $100 million. Most recently, during the dismantling of A.I.G.-F.P., I was an integral player in the pending sale of its well-regarded commodity index business to UBS. As you know, business unit sales like this are crucial to A.I.G.’s effort to repay the American taxpayer.

The profitability of the businesses with which I was associated clearly supported my compensation. I never received any pay resulting from the credit default swaps that are now losing so much money. I did, however, like many others here, lose a significant portion of my life savings in the form of deferred compensation invested in the capital of A.I.G.-F.P. because of those losses. In this way I have personally suffered from this controversial activity — directly as well as indirectly with the rest of the taxpayers.

I have the utmost respect for the civic duty that you are now performing at A.I.G. You are as blameless for these credit default swap losses as I am. You answered your country’s call and you are taking a tremendous beating for it.

But you also are aware that most of the employees of your financial products unit had nothing to do with the large losses. And I am disappointed and frustrated over your lack of support for us. I and many others in the unit feel betrayed that you failed to stand up for us in the face of untrue and unfair accusations from certain members of Congress last Wednesday and from the press over our retention payments, and that you didn’t defend us against the baseless and reckless comments made by the attorneys general of New York and Connecticut.

My guess is that in October, when you learned of these retention contracts, you realized that the employees of the financial products unit needed some incentive to stay and that the contracts, being both ethical and useful, should be left to stand. That’s probably why A.I.G. management assured us on three occasions during that month that the company would “live up to its commitment” to honor the contract guarantees.

That may be why you decided to accelerate by three months more than a quarter of the amounts due under the contracts. That action signified to us your support, and was hardly something that one would do if he truly found the contracts “distasteful.”

That may also be why you authorized the balance of the payments on March 13.

At no time during the past six months that you have been leading A.I.G. did you ask us to revise, renegotiate or break these contracts — until several hours before your appearance last week before Congress.

I think your initial decision to honor the contracts was both ethical and financially astute, but it seems to have been politically unwise. It’s now apparent that you either misunderstood the agreements that you had made — tacit or otherwise — with the Federal Reserve, the Treasury, various members of Congress and Attorney General Andrew Cuomo of New York, or were not strong enough to withstand the shifting political winds.

You’ve now asked the current employees of A.I.G.-F.P. to repay these earnings. As you can imagine, there has been a tremendous amount of serious thought and heated discussion about how we should respond to this breach of trust.

As most of us have done nothing wrong, guilt is not a motivation to surrender our earnings. We have worked 12 long months under these contracts and now deserve to be paid as promised. None of us should be cheated of our payments any more than a plumber should be cheated after he has fixed the pipes but a careless electrician causes a fire that burns down the house.

Many of the employees have, in the past six months, turned down job offers from more stable employers, based on A.I.G.’s assurances that the contracts would be honored. They are now angry about having been misled by A.I.G.’s promises and are not inclined to return the money as a favor to you.

The only real motivation that anyone at A.I.G.-F.P. now has is fear. Mr. Cuomo has threatened to “name and shame,” and his counterpart in Connecticut, Richard Blumenthal, has made similar threats — even though attorneys general are supposed to stand for due process, to conduct trials in courts and not the press.

So what am I to do? There’s no easy answer. I know that because of hard work I have benefited more than most during the economic boom and have saved enough that my family is unlikely to suffer devastating losses during the current bust. Some might argue that members of my profession have been overpaid, and I wouldn’t disagree.

That is why I have decided to donate 100 percent of the effective after-tax proceeds of my retention payment directly to organizations that are helping people who are suffering from the global downturn. This is not a tax-deduction gimmick; I simply believe that I at least deserve to dictate how my earnings are spent, and do not want to see them disappear back into the obscurity of A.I.G.’s or the federal government’s budget. Our earnings have caused such a distraction for so many from the more pressing issues our country faces, and I would like to see my share of it benefit those truly in need.

On March 16 I received a payment from A.I.G. amounting to $742,006.40, after taxes. In light of the uncertainty over the ultimate taxation and legal status of this payment, the actual amount I donate may be less — in fact, it may end up being far less if the recent House bill raising the tax on the retention payments to 90 percent stands. Once all the money is donated, you will immediately receive a list of all recipients.

This choice is right for me. I wish others at A.I.G.-F.P. luck finding peace with their difficult decision, and only hope their judgment is not clouded by fear.

Mr. Liddy, I wish you success in your commitment to return the money extended by the American government, and luck with the continued unwinding of the company’s diverse businesses — especially those remaining credit default swaps. I’ll continue over the short term to help make sure no balls are dropped, but after what’s happened this past week I can’t remain much longer — there is too much bad blood. I’m not sure how you will greet my resignation, but at least Attorney General Blumenthal should be relieved that I’ll leave under my own power and will not need to be “shoved out the door.”

Sincerely,

Jake DeSantis

決定了!!

最近想要不要換相機，想到我心情都鬱悶了起來。唉，錢總是不夠花啊XD
但後來想想還是續留Nikon吧！不知道為啥就是對canon的一些小地方(機械)不放心。另一方面，如果因為5d2的錄影很新潮就這樣跳來跳去，哪天等nikon也出新玩意，我不就又要跳回來。所以儘管5d markII能錄影很酷，儘管小小白IS的身影如此誘人，我決定還是續留nikon，存錢衝D700!!Sigma新版的24-70mm也是一個因素，N家的那管奈米24-70mm實在太貴了，至於中望遠，就用大光圈定焦鏡打死吧！
(拜託nikon快放出輕盈版70-200mm的乳摸吧！這樣我會更堅定！XD)

新 新年新希望XDDD

Nikon D700

Sigma 24-70mm F2.8 IF EX DG HSM

Nikon AF 85mm f/1.8D IF
















Nikon AF-S VR Micro-Nikkor 105mm f/2.8G IF-ED















如果以上都有了，再來買Sigma 50mm f1.4跟60mm micro XD


結論：人類真的是貪心的動物XD

吵甚麼吵，不要在一起就沒事了?

昨天晚上算吵了一架，一整晚我們都沒甚麼對話。Q寶又尿在床上，我也悶聲不吭的一個人拿出去烘乾。

J說了，我連續好幾天都對她兇。我仔細想想，禮拜二好像沒發生甚麼事，不過禮拜三就真的讓我很不高興。這天我依舊是從補習班回來，眼睛長針眼亂痛一把的，但想起明天就要交擴散學作業，我還是不敢休息，回到家裡趕緊想把小桌子搬進房間哩，趕快把我前幾天跟勇哥討論完的結果寫好，再把一直想不通的那題繼續完成。

回到家裡，J就巴著我不放，跟她說了我還有作業要趕快做，她回了句：「你都已經寫好幾天了！」，我心裡想，我可以一下子就全部寫完的話，也不用在這裡想那好幾天！禮拜天我就準備寫這次作業，然後禮拜一二趕快找人討論，還要邊準備大一的講習課。如果我可以這麼快就把作業寫完，我又何嘗不想多留一點時間給自己？然後過不久又說：「你們以前不是都抄一抄就好嗎？」，如果我現在還是抱持著抄作業交，考試前再來唸書的心態，那我去修擴散學這麼重的課幹嘛？還有很多輕鬆的涼課可以修，我又何必搞得自己為這一次作業神經兮兮？

昨天，就是禮拜四，我已經說了我要打球。打完球發現手機上有J的未接來電，我趕緊回撥，沒接；然後再回撥，還是沒接。想說過一陣子再打應該就會接了，沒想到還是沒接，就這樣一路打了不曉得幾通，隱約覺得十來通應該有吧！都沒接！我真的超級擔心她會不會發生甚麼事，沒想到回家，她告訴我只是想跟我說他去了麻吉...。

Q寶很會挑時間點，在這時候尿在了床上...GOOD！接下來吵甚麼我就不贅述了。我想說我不是一個上班族，不是晚上回到家裡就可以閒閒沒事，我還要去補習班上課賺一些錢買相機，我還要準備寫作業，我還要準備隔天要用的東西。不知道J有沒有發現，我這個禮拜甚至還沒有開過我的XBOX...

吵甚麼吵?!你已經有你的生活步調，但我也有我的。如果你不行接受，那很好，你大可以回去你租的地方睡覺。然後我們再來談還要不要在一起。現在這時候，這些事情都不該是我的主軸，所以要放棄，我也會不顧一切放棄。這次你要帶走Q寶就帶走，我也不會堅持甚麼了！

TMC?! Rise or Fall?!

TMC召集人宣明智宣布：不整併國內DRAM廠。
相關新聞連結如下：
宣明智要DRAM自救 業者傻眼
TMC不整併ＤＲＡＭ廠 6業者自救
宣明智：TMC不整併 DRAM廠傻眼
高招!?宣明智切割TMC和DRAM 業者叫苦

我對於政治經濟這些議題一向不是太熱衷，相較於J，我總是比較以局外者的角度看這些事情。上面愛亂搞，亂搞完再互表，表贏了就拿選票，當選以後等著被表，這就是我對於台灣政治的看法。今天下午在數字板看到這則新聞﹝是的，你沒看錯，我都在數字板看新聞﹞，我覺得這步棋下得真好。不再把大家的錢一股腦地往現在這攤死水裡砸，而是自立門戶，再把訂單丟出去，養起目前過剩的產能。

另一方面，這步棋也下得很險。不管怎樣，現下台灣DRAM產業舉債動輒百億以上，若不救，就等於是把這十億百億當作丟掉了，連帶觸發投資人﹝銀行﹞信心以及經濟環境的改變，接下來勢必不會有甚麼大好的光景，慘一點有可能導致台灣經濟的崩盤...。但反過頭來看，台灣現在有工廠，有機台，也有人才，不過這些DRAM廠以債養債的做法實難為長久之計，何不趁現在整體經濟走勢較為疲弱的時候，整組砍掉重來，或許趕得上下一波經濟大好時，再創一次經濟奇蹟？

引用PTT上sdlong的文章
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這招是個絕妙高招呀！
其實真該給行政團隊拍拍手
先別噓 慢慢解釋

台灣目前的Dram廠太多 負債太高 產能閒置又很高
沒有自有技術，不是看日本(爾必答)臉色 就是要捧美國(美光)的LP
前者的技術體系有： 力晶 茂德 瑞晶(茂德 力晶 爾必答的合資企業，未上市)
後者的技術體系有： 台塑體系的南亞科等等

政府如果拿了錢去紓困現有的Dram廠 真的就是送錢給他們燒
不但浪費我們人民的錢，更是幫那些賺飽飽的奸商出脫的機會
就目前的觀察，宣所領導的TMC 有幾個重點：

1. 跟美日二大廠談技術合作 誰給的籌碼高就跟誰合作
君不見當內定爾必答的消息出來以後，美光馬上放話說無償贈與1500的矽智財
希望能夠拿到進入TMC談判桌上的門票 (所以，我們只要乖乖等誰給的籌碼多
之前老歪拿訂單讓台商自相殘殺的招式 反客為主)

2. 不建廠房，只鑽研R&D領域，生產方面將藉由與其他Dram廠合作方式生產
不用花幾百幾千億去建廠房，花的錢更少，更不需要舉債
現有廠的產能閒置率過高，再怎麼不爽還是乖乖的領TMC的訂單去做

3. 技術獨立
不管是跟美 還是 日合作，得到初步關鍵的技術能力是勢在必行了
300億的資金不用花在生產廠房 只需鑽精在RD上
跟其他現有的廠比起來有絕佳絕佳的競爭力
如果跟爾必答合作，甚至可以直接併沒上市的瑞晶，省超多功夫，
又是爾必答的轉投資公司，又用一樣的技術，因為沒有公開上市 價格更好談 CCC...
力晶是Dram會長又如何？ (假設爾必答出線) 到時候技術都在TMC手上
不俯首稱臣也不行

4. 從零開始
其他廠不但有負債，還有產能閒置...等等沉重包袱
相對於TMC一個滿手現金，有技術的公司，就算整整一二年不動，其他廠自己就掛了
到時候再談合作啦 還是併購整個局勢又是不一樣

最近看了一系列媒體的報導，似乎中石體系的都在ㄍㄧㄠˇ這個政策
幫既得利益者說話 ... 這也難怪麻
本來可以找個機會脫身 把燙口山芋丟給政府以及人民
現在要搞到自己的問題自己解決 甚至前幾年賺的全部吐回來
不靠盃才怪
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的確，這些新聞裡面，「業者」叫苦連天，因為他們是既得利益者，「坐擁」龐大的負資產。說了不整併，不給錢，就等於不給他們解套的機會，難怪要叫苦連天。但是想一想，真正的既得利益者了不起不過幾百人﹝企業高層+家族企業﹞，與投身在這整體產業裡的數千數萬人相比，又算得了甚麼呢？別忘了是誰把這東西玩爛的，還不就是這些既得利益者嗎？

希望這會是個堅持下去的政策，也會是個引導出好結果的政策...
加油吧！這條路還有很長一段要走！

小宇 - 還簡單的多

作詞：黃文萱 / 作曲：宋念宇


妳說　我總
太過　沉默
學著對妳　要毫無保留
其實　沒有
那麼　難懂
比妳想的還簡單的多

從前的日子
一個人發呆
孤單的時候　音樂陪伴
沒想到　妳卻走來
把我生命都填滿

以後的日子
我陪妳期待
孤單的時候　會更勇敢
這一次　不會重來
我不說承諾
因為我不走開

太多　時候
我也　迷惑
生活到底在追求甚麼
直到　妳說
妳也　愛我
比我想的還簡單的多

從前的日子
一個人發呆
孤單的時候　音樂陪伴
沒想到　妳卻走來
把我生命都填滿

以後的日子
我陪妳期待
孤單的時候　會更勇敢
這一次不會重來
我不說承諾
因為我不走開

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剛剛在爆怒的時候(詳見上一篇)，耳邊響起了一句歌詞「從前的日子一個人發呆...」，是小宇的歌。他的這張專輯真的很好聽，比起某些歌手與團體...，無奈外型不突出，無法獲得重視吧。
這首歌，很像我，不說話不是不愛妳，而是怕說了又做不到愛妳，「我不說承諾 因為我不走開」。

X他媽的這世界是病了是不是!?(內文有些不知節制)

某知名3c網站上有一篇MD發表的不愉快的外拍經驗，我節錄幾段過來，有興趣的可以去仔細看看。
===以下為網站節錄文字
這個時候站長坐到我旁邊來跟我聊天(也把費用結清)
他開始說一些讓我非常非常火大的話..

他：上次試鏡看不出來小C這麼不錯(意指上圍很傲人)
我：對啊！她身材很好
他：妳也可以去隆乳啊！
我心想~靠~關你屁事阿！老娘我有老娘的好~我老公都沒嫌棄我了~你嫌屁
但是我沒有回話


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他：你真的不拍泳衣嗎？
我：不要，不可能
他：哀唷！妳們都剛開始都說不要不要的，到後來還不是都要了
我：不可能，我絕對不可能
他：這樣才賺的比較快啊！
我：我不需要
他：小C都拍了，妳也可以啊！
我：我就說我不要齁！

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然後~最誇張的來了..
他：不然你不要拍也可以啊！妳來跟我運動..
= =
他指的運動就是上床
我：我才不要咧！
他：哀唷！不用怕妳男朋友知道啊！妳不說我不說，就不會有人知道
我：不可能，絕對不可能，我才不要咧！
他：我會給你零用錢啊！
我：不需要，我男朋友對我很好
他：沒有比較過怎麼知道
我：不需要，我男朋友真的很好

===節錄結束

從他媽的知名網站上看網友的反應，當然不外乎有人說要注意要小心。但令我火大的是，居然有人說出「出去外拍就要有心理準備」不然就是「說穿了還不是為了錢」這種言論。
我真他媽的越看越火，甚麼叫做心理準備，你們這些辦外拍的攝影師常常把「藝術」「健康」的言論擺在嘴邊，如果是藝術健康，敢問閣下是要有甚麼心理準備？怕太藝術健康受不了嗎？這社會是道德淪喪到這地步嗎？明明是非已經如此明顯，儘管現在只有MD的說法，沒有某聯盟的說辭，但這篇文章中某些人的回文真的是讓我啞口無言。一向都在海平面以下的我，忍不住浮上水面：

===又是網站節錄文字
怪了...女孩子說自己被騷擾 然後還被問要不要"一起運動"
這裡的人卻反過來說要出去外拍就要有心理準備
不然就是說MD還不是為了錢...
而鮮少譴責某聯盟，甚至某站長，難不成真的是我的價值觀有問題...
還是MD被問要不要"一起運動"根本就是常態?無奈

有點同理心吧，如果今天是你的老婆、女友、小孩遇到這情況
你會不會也是這樣冷酷的丟一句「你自己本來就要有心理準備」
然後帥氣的拍拍屁股走人?!
更甚，你會不會為了一千五而放棄你個人的自尊??
會不會為了一千五而要妳們的親人女友放棄他們的自尊??

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我絕對不是道德魔人，但你們常常在抱怨拿相機被人家當作異類，外拍被人家當作色狼，小砲一舉起來人家就躲。如果真有你們回文裡的這種心態，我連舉起相機對著人都覺得不好意思。先矯正你們自己的心態，再來說別人其心可議!!!!!!!!
最後還是忍不住再表一句，幹你媽的病態!!